first time

Phew..
Finally, i am home savely..
You won't know exactly how i felt driving without a license and money in a high way that it is quite far away from my home.
And the most important was my car isn't working as well as before.. it can just suddenly shut down in the middle of the road..
Quite nervous with that...
It made me drving under 110km/h in the high way as i was affraid there is police on duty to cheack for the IC and license.
When i was just went through the toll, the car in front of me broke suddenly ..
luckily the break of my car had been serviced before as the function nearly killed itself last year and costed about RM500 to fix it.
My car and i didn't bump into others..and i just quickly drove off..
On my way home, i saw the blue light in front of me keep sparkling .
ya.. that was police's car..
another luckiness... i drove through it..
and now i am home..

maybe i should buy myself a wallet with sharp colour..
so that it can be easily seen in my handbag.
hehe

拿得起，放得下

今天去了机场送天华，这可是我第一次去送到海外升学的朋友。
看到与他一起同行的朋友一一向亲戚朋友相拥时，心里难免有点感触。
尤其是当她与年老的祖父，祖母拥抱时，那场面更是感动了我。
更害怕的是，当自己要走进门卡时和父母道别的情景，毕竟我可是一个比别人还要容易被感动的人。

离开的日子一天天的逼近，
我却没有因为离开而感到有所不舍，
或许从来就没什么自由的自己早已期待那一刻的到来。

朋友们都各奔东西了，
留下来的只是家人与亲戚，
对于他们我有说不清的感情，说不明白的挣扎，
有些时候离开未免不是个让大家互相思念的最好方式。

其实我本来就不是个安分守己的孩子，
更不是个宁愿接受安排的孩子，
不过我可以忍耐去接受其他安排，
只要极限一到，
我就不会停止的奔跑，
对我来说，比起一个简简单单的旅程，
我宁愿选择刺激点的探索式旅程，
所以自己有时难免有些想要一个人的生活的念头，
那可都是为了避免家人担忧的情景出现。

可惜的是，
我的生活里，总是有人为我担忧。

开始无法分辨那些人的担忧是让自己幸福还是让自己痛苦。。
咳。。
所谓的人生不就是要学会如何拿得起，放得下么？